March 21

It's getting really hard..I've been very lonely lately. I don't want to tell him that because I want him to finish. I couldn't even start to understand what it's like for him. He's very strong for doing this. I'm confused emotionally. It's hard to not have him around but I'm getting used to it and that's scary too. I sit waiting for a phone call that I never know will come. This is harder then I ever thought it could be. It seems like everday is harder and harder..